Just let me be me

This year has been a bitch to me so far.
so many things I've gone through and am not getting over yet.
I feel like really no one understands and no once cares.


I think I'm going on a hiatus.

My Superman (:

my superman and I in sem 1 (:

He's my superman because he's simply one of my best friends.

Happy 18th Birthday Syaf!

I'm so blessed to have you in my life. For always being there for me when I feel like shit and Hafiz does not help much. For always making me laugh when I tell you that I am about to cry and for always making sure I am feeling okay after that. You're definitely one of the people who make my life worthwhile (: And whenever I see you around in school, I feel happy because I know that I have an awesome friend! Thanks for accepting me for who I am and for being my friend! Love ya Syaf! And I do believe that sooner or later, the right girl will come along.

Love you lots and lots and lots and lots! And I will give you a surprise on Thursday! Wait for it!

Unproductive

Today was such an unproductive day for me.
I woke up at 2 pm and studied for 30 mins and then used the laptop, trimmed my hair and dinner at granny's place. That's about it.

But anyways, lately life has been good.
With awesome friends and super fun classmates.
Though there are some issues going on in my life, I believe that everything will be okay soon.
And having God in my life makes everything better.

Hanging out with the Hope RP people for the past 2 Saturdays were fun too.
With all crap and nonsense coming out. Have I mentioned how much I love them?

Anyways, Replug's Arts Platter: Ignite Edition is this Tuesday at 5 pm at South Agora! Come and support okaysA definitely awesome week ahead (:

dear friend, you are dearly missed (:

I'll Be There

Watched MJ's Memorial Service on Wednesday.
I was so touched at the end when his daughter spoke.

I MISS SCHOOOL!!!
I MISS W54E!!!!
I MISS REPLUGIOS!!!

ahhhhhh....

hopefully I can see them later on in the day.

And danny, you better study for your UT!

MC/LOA

It's kind of ridiculous the way my mom is treating me right now.

When I told her about the number of cases in school 2 weeks ago, she told me I was being paranoid.
And now that I'm having a slight flu which is getting better by the way, she refuses to come near me and doesn't even allow my brother or sister to come near me.

This is so ridiculous and she doesn't even ask me how I feel. And of course I cry. What kind of mother does this to you?

It's not my fault that I fall sick at the wrong time.

But anyways, I'm missing school so terribly.
My classmates, the Replugios, Syaf and Hafiz.
It sucks, seriously.

Lean On Me.

Went to the Esplanade with Replugios after school yesterday evening to watch our dearest Dilly perform at Beats and Breaks 2. He was damn cool and he brought the care bear on stage :) After that we headed to Marina Square to slack and we just lepak-ed. I left after awhile to look for someone, which did not go very well but I'm just gonna let it go.

Since Prayer Meeting was still going on, I decided to go and join them and it that short period of time, I felt really refreshed. It feels nice to be in God's presence again. And seeing the faces of the RP unit just made my day even better. And, seeing old familiar faces made me smile even more.

Anyways, when I got back home, some stupid irritating stuff happened and I was really damn pissed and I was soo tired from not sleeping well the past few days. And thanks to Eve who cheered me up.

And last night, I was sharing to Sayang and Shaheedah about some stuff that I've been going through and I'm so glad to have them in my life. Altough my day ended real bad, they managed to cheer me up before going to sleep. And since I read SOMEONE'S blog and that person sort of needed cheering up, I decided to send a random text to that person. Hopes it cheers him up some way or another (:

Now I know that I don't have to out on a facade because I have awesome friends that are always going to be there for me. The love, care and concern they show and give highly overpowers the hurt that I have felt or that I am going to feel. I don't need to have best friends, just true ones (:

Alrights, gonna go get ready to go out. Long but exciting day ahead. Ending off with this pic:

Danny boy and me (:

Hypocrisy

I have so much at the back of my mind but I don't know how to start this post.
I don't even know if I spelt the title correctly. But who cares.

Why is it that I am so firm in my stand in certain things is because I don't want to be a hypocrite.
I don't want to do things half-heartedly so that's why there has been conflicts of interests between me and others nowadays.

Having settled the first tug-of-war, I feel that the second one is coming.

I dun want to have to feel guilty for choosing to hang out with a certain group more than another group. If you guys really are my friends, you know that I have my reasons for making certain decisions. It hurts when you guys say certain things. I need to get this off my chest, gonna go and talk to someone about it now.

Anyways, Replugios have been invading Twitterville!
And here's a glimpse of the crap that goes on there:

it's just different now.