Heroes

Tomorrow, my Sunday School kids will be heading up to Malaysia for their annual Family/Childrens' camp.

How I wish I could be there, but I will definitely be there next year.

Dear God, I pray that as Your little children go for camp, they will learn from Your word on how to be a Hero for You. Though they may be young and small, I pray that their little hearts would be open for you to bless them. I pray for Aunty Yung, that may You just annoint her with Your wisdom, Your strength and Your power to teach the little ones well! May you bless Celestine and Shun Rong with strength as they go and help Aunty Yung as well. Bless everyone with a safe journey up! In Jesus' name, Amen!

Tucky Wong Wong Wong

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TUCKY WOOOOONG!
I've known this idiot since primary school while we were in the same CCA.
And due to some unforeseen (well, not really unforeseen) circumstances, we ended up in the same sec 3 class and became close friends in sec 4.

Thanks Tucky Wong for being an awesome friend!

Sitting next to Lai Mun now and she's blogging as well.

Okays.
Back to concentrate in class.
I'm serious!

He is Strong Enough

Strong Enough
by Stacie Orrico

As I rest against this cold, hard wall
Will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there anyway to be made whole again?
If I'm healed,renewed, and find forgiveness find the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into his hands and it turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It's there I've finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh Thank You for my chance to start again
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Came across this song on my playlist while studying yesterday.
And I started to meditate on the lyrics and I realised how true it IS that my God is strong, pure, and brave enough to take the chance to give me a new life.

Just some updates on my life.
I'm currently in the coolest IG in school- REPLUG :)
long story about why I am in though but I am so happy luhs!

Class is all good.
My group had a picnic during 3rd meeting today.
But we're going to be split up next week =(
but on the other hand, maybe I'll finally get an A for cheMisery. haha.
Just kidding.

Had my first UT today.
Hopefully I'll get at least a B.
Class was hyper just before the UT and we started guessing what letter will start of the code.
And I guessed J and it was right! Awesome?

And the best thing so far is that the Adrian and Aaron are here!
Hung out with them over the weekends, went swimming and a bit of shopping.
It's kinda cool how we're all growing up so fast, but that childish playful side of us is still there.
It's like, all of have hit the big TWO OH and we're still doing stupid things at the pool. I'm so going to maximize my time with them! Upcoming activities with them include paint balling, reverse bungee (omg, I can't believe that I was the one who suggested it.), Monster and Aliens 3D, Jurong east swimming complex, Sentosa, Scuba Diving. OMG! My 2 weeks are going to be sooo packed!

Alrights.
Going to sleeeeep soon!
LAB tomorrow!

Stand.

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend, till you break
Cause it's all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad you get strong
Wipe your hands shake it off
Then you stand
-Rascal Flatts, Stand

I'm starting to get back on my feet already. Thanks to all the encouragement from the people around me, the constant care and concern and the ever willing listening ears. For keeping me company so that I don't think of the ongoings.

I even thank God for the super tiring and long and tedious rehearsal yesterday because at least I was doing something and not letting my mind idle. I did not cry yesterday and today which is a good sign.

I thank God for the forever creating havoc Daphne for skipping her lectures to come and visit the RP people. Yesterday was the first time that I really shared how I really felt about the current rough patch in my life and she was there to encourage me and accompany me throughout some of my second break yesterday.

I thank God for Lian Jie for being a Big Brother to all of us. For always making sure that we're okay and for always assuring us that he is there for us.

I thank God for michtans. For her prayer on that night, for her constant encouragement, for listening to me complain and rant and my whinings and helping me to stay strong with God throughout this whole rough patch.

I thank God for my friends in school who always unknowingly have a way to make me smile and laugh even when I'm at my lowest peak.

I can go on and on and on about the many blessing that God has showered upon me in this past week, but I am kind of too tired to type it all out.

On another note, I am really glad that the 2 week break is coming. I have been under some tremendous emotional, mental and physical stress lately that if I don't get a break soon, I will just break down. The pimple breakout on my chin is the evidence of my stress level.

UTs are coming too fast.

I need to study hard.
I need to balance my time.
I need strength, wisdom and faith.

I need God.

eternally

I couldn't bring myself to go for the cremation ceremony yesterday.
And at that time, I had a very nauseous feeling in my stomach.
But thank God for my classmates who helped me to keep my mind occupied with other things.

After awhile,
I started to sense some sort of joy in my heart.
And at that moment, I knew that it had to be the Big Guy up there who gave me the peace of mind, peace of heart.

Hezekiah Chen Jia Wei is now with Him.
Eternally with Him.
Safe from harm and all worries.

Lian Jie told me this yesterday:

					den dun keep thinkin abt jiawei death le...
					he din wan to see us like tat de...
					tat why he always put a smile in front of us rite?

There were times that I started to tear when I had an idle mind.
But I know that life goes.

Chen Jia Wei, you'll always be remembered, never forgotten :D

neighbours in heaven :)

When I got the news,
I was in shock, total shock. I kept walking in and out in and out of the classroom.
I didn't know how to react. I didn't know if it was true.
I asked Lian Jie, he forwarded me the email, and then and there, I broke down in class.
It was just so sudden. too sudden.

sitting at the wake yesterday, I couldn't help but hope that it was a dream, a nightmare, and that my alarm would soon ring and I would be woken up and everything would be okay.

Unfortunately, it was so real. So so real.
I thought that it would never happen to me, to us.
It's the kind of thing that you only read about in the news or you hear about on tv, in shows and movies.

But it did.

It was a wake up call for me, a reality check.
And it really reminded me:

I am not just responsible for my own life, but I'm responsible for the lives of the people around me. But I know that there is no point in regretting now because it had passed.

"Surely life wasn't made to regret"

but somehow, I wish that I could turn back time and do more for him.
but I guess now, I have to work on moving on and working harder and pressing on towards the goal.

Thanks friends for being there for me. For the hugs and prayers and ice chocolate.

And to HRP, we'll all get through this together, amen?

Chen Jia Wei,
Your smile and your laughter will always be remembered by us.
You will always be in our hearts.
Have fun in heaven and anticipate our arrival!
I'm glad that we're going to be neighbours in heaven :)

Treasures

Today I learnt something new.

People REALLY matter to God.




W54E,
Thanks for the care and concern and the hugs and the prayers :)
I love you guys!

Carol's Party

This week went by really slowly.

Anyways, went for Carol's BBQ yesterday.
Had a blast and lots of laugh.
Food was good too!
I was nice and helped people to peel prawns!

Alrights, gonna get charged up for another long and tiring week of school!

My Glorious

My Glorious - Delirious?/Hillsong

The world's shaking with the love of God
Great and glorious, let the whole Earth sing
And all you ever do is change the old from new
People we believe that...

(Chorus)
God is bigger than
The air I breathe
The world we'll leave
God will save the day 
and all will say
My glorious!

Clouds are breaking, heaven's come to earth
Hearts awakening let the church bells ring
And all you ever do is change the old to new
People we believe that...

My Source

Currently sitting at the E1 canteen alone because Sly's "bed would not let go of him."
(This idiot is getting more and more creative with his excuses.)

I just saw something that made me feel uncomfortable. But I shall not judge people.

Yesterday's CG was an awesome one.
And God really spoke to me through the worship.
And now I know that my God is greater than my insecurities, greater than my problems, greater than anything in the world.

Alrights. Shall go buy some food then off to class later!!!

Cheerios!

When I Look Into the Mirror

I was thinking of things again last night.

Tossing and turning in bed because I felt too weighed down to sleep.
And what do I do?
I cry. Because it's 2 am in the morning and I don't know who to turn to.

I always question myself: Why am I so soft-hearted? Why do I let people walk over me all the time? Why is it that I care too much about others that I forget to care about myself? I was just really upset.

It's like, I am angry with people but I don't dare to speak out and I bottle everything in.
I just need a break. A getaway.

And, my stomach hurts now.

Whines and Complaints

Some people are so.... errrghs.

Make small problems seem so big. Making a mountain out of a molehill and even worse, proclaiming it to the whole world.

Oh wells.

I was really in a super super down mood since last night and I cried myself to sleep last night. Used tissues were all over my bed when I woke up.

But I thank michtans for today. For accompanying me the whole day and for listening to me rant and complain.

Yea, I'm hungry ar.

Haha.
Alright, gna prepare for CG tomorrow!

helpless

in situations like these, I feel so helpless.
there's nothing I can do.

I feel like, I'm not doing my best but emotional and physical tiredness is holding me back from giving more. I give up so much, I get nothing back, not even a bit.

speechless, just speechless.

I'm Back!

Hello people!

I missed using blogger!
Will redo my blogskin when I have time!
And I will occasionally go back to livejournal if I feel like it.
Anyways, I submitted my PP scope today and it was approved.

this awesome class!

and my loves!