Cures for Monday Blues

This is what I did in school today:



CAMWHORE with classmates...


WEBCAM with sayang...

VIDEO CALL with syam!
(and in the background I'm chatting with Dilly!!!)
This is how I cured my Monday blues....

Except for one thing...

Ridiculous.

Shit happened today.
Like a lot of shit.

1) King of Pop Died. (R.I.P)
2) RP had 18 cases of H1N1 this morning.
3) Within one day, it's 31 cases.
4) A and P faci gave me a ridiculous grade. I got a C. LONG STORY!
5) School made a typo error and said that my class had one confirmed case. Caused and hour of panic and paranoia in my class.
6) had a bad hair day, like really bad.
7) no deck today, but did lepak for awhile.
8) No IG or gatherings at 3B, still.

Hopefully, the night will be good.
Going to meet slyboy now!

Choices

Somethings have been weighing me down for a while and I feel that there is so much pressure on me. Too much for me to handle. People are expecting way too much for me and therefore I have to make a decision.

2 groups of people, want more from me. And both are somehow trying to make me choose over one.

"It's like being in a tug-of-war, and I'm the rope."
This is how I explained my situation to chayzx and natellehcim.

There is only so much I can handle.
I have somehow come to a conclusion and made a decision, made my choice.
I know that people are going to try to make me change this, but I stand firm in my decision.

I know that my heart is right with God, so please don't judge me based on my decision, on my choices.

I need space.

Bottle.

I thought it was ridiculous to cry over such things so I hold back my tears.
But I talked to Chayzx and she said that it's not silly to cry over things that make you unhappy.
Thanks Chayzx <3

I need things to distract me and fill up my time.
That's what I've got friends for (:

Save.

I need to save myself from the hurt that will most probably eventually come.
Probably just not the right time, but I know that everything is perfect in God's timing.
So I'm gonna give up. I'm gonna distant myself.
It's not gonna be easy but I know my girlfriends will help me (:


But thanks for being an awesome friend. Appreciate everything.

And this part of the post is dedicated to michtans!
Thanks dear for everything.
For always listening to me and being here for me and for advising me on everything from A to Z. I thank God for putting such a blessing in my life as a reminder that He is here with me. You're my Godsent. Let's walk/run and complete this race together (: LOVE YOU NATELLEHCIM!


jiayou miche(qua)! You can overcome anything with God!

Girlfriends (:

I always thought that guys would make better friends because they don't really bitch that much. And up till the beginning of this year, my good and close friends were all guys with an exception of a few girls.

But up till recently, I've made a few good girlfriends.
Today I was talking to Aishah and Dhivv about my mood swings and they really cheered me up. I love them.

And just now, I found out that michtans and chayzx were experiencing the same problems I'm experiencing too and I really thank God for them in my life.

I think that having such awesome friends is awesome. haha.

Thanks girls for everything, you guys make my life worthwhile ((:

Tired.

I'm feeling so cranky and tired now.
Totally affected my mood.
And I felt so useless in the lab just now.
Frankly speaking, I feel that my standard is not up to the rest of the class.

I met Maman just now and we talked and I feel so happy that we're still able to talk things out with each other. That Kiddo ar..

Oh wells,
Hope my day starts to pick up (:

cheMISERY!

I love Aishah (: and Dhivv too!

Having cheMISERY now.
It sucks balls man.
I hate it and the internet in school today sucks balls tooo.

But I'm happy to see my classmates again though.
Alrights, we'll update more with pics on my holidays soon!

In Check

It's 3.15 am and I can't sleep.
Why?

Well, it's because i went to sleep at 10 pm and woke up at 1030 pm not tired anymore.

I have a lot of things on my mind right now.
A few changes going on in my life that really worry me.

But the most important change is that I am now taking up a new group and I am scared out of my wits. Like seriously. I mean, at first I was all excited and stuff but just when Hope RP2 split, a lot of other things come up.

e.g. My family comes to Singapore, tests to study for, serving MM for the special services and some personal problems.

Seriously, ever since last week, after something happened, I really had second thoughts about whether I should take up this leadership role, whether I was fit to take up this leadership, whether I was willing to commit to this new leadership role.

And then, i thought of the people in this group. I thought of Tings, Melody, Cheryl and Melissa and I realized the importance of my commitment to them. Not just to them, but to Emily's group too. To the whole girls' group. The CG covenant.

If I love God, I will commit myself to His work and His people.
I know I have to constantly check in with God, to be in step with Him.

Oh boy, this is going to be a tough but exciting journey.

On another note, this week has been quite good to me so far.
Got a new pair of shoes yesterday and had guitar lessons with Bernie on monday.
Been hanging out with Replugios too!

And later on, Romantico Boys will be making their debut performance. Hopefully I can sneak in to watch!

And lastly, thanks Danny for chatting with me in the weeee hours of the morning.

Replug Camp 2009

maxxie boy and me!
the only personal pic from replug camp.

camp was some awesome shit.
it's like the funnest, funniest, most adventurous and most awesome camp ever.
Games were fun. Seniors did a great job in preparing the games and Adam was hilarious.
I was kinda blown away by the band competition because the newbies were really good.
The last night of camp was the greatest. Had candle light dinner next to the pond and it was supposed to have a loungy feeling but we ended up forming a dance circle. Haha. Who says you need to go to clubs to dance and have fun? All you need is a big space, loud music and fun and awesome people!

BREAK THE STAGE was crazy! Filmed down the whole thing. It was friggin' funny too.

I'm really thankful for this camp, for the awesome new friends I made and the crazy fun we had.

Currently suffering from post-camp syndrome.

To a dear friend:
I'm not a professional counsellor and I give crappy advice.
But I promise to be there for you and to help you along the way.
You're not alone at all :)

Doubtful?

Currently having camp.
It's the last day and everyone is asleep while I'm awake because I was asleep while everyone was awake.

Some stuff really screwed up my mood on Monday.
And I was really damn pissed. It's like, why can't I get the benefit of the doubt.
But I know that there is something I have to do about it.

And now,
I am having some doubts about this decision I made.
I was quite firm on going against it but something I can't seem to make up my mind.
This feeling really sucks. And I feel that there's nothing I can do about it, no one I can talk to about it.

I feel weird.
And I seriously feel like crap now and I know that it's definitely not because of my lack of sleep.

Life was, is, and will always be a bitch.