woot! thanks keith for the email and my reply is: yes and amen!!
i love mondays, tuesdays and wednesdays cause there's chinese lessons!
yea, some of u may call me crazy, but i really love my chinese class ppl.
so crapped with the usual ppl and played games in class. hahas. the relief teacher kept picking on my lahs! hahahahs

emaths was quite boring lahs. was feeling really sleepy and physics was like.. i duno how to do light rays and reflection! ahhhs.
recess-ed and then to amaths lesson and im so gna get a "moon" for my test lahs. so linhui sleeping next to me so i fell asleep too. SS was quite fun cause of the 2 idiots sitting behind. hahas

lunch-ed with yining den left for CG.
after CG went to macs to eat and saw seepeng, nicholas, kriss and others.
damn tired now lahs...
and i just wna kill myself cans?
booo... no chinese class tomorrow =(

today started out fun.
was totally crapping with my sean, van, tuckyo, rainer and stanley (rain bow) during chinese lesson.
most of the time making fun of stanley and listening to music.

then had chem and me, van and lihong were like... high? hahas. went back for geog and mr goh was damn funny lahs. he left abt 15 mins before the period ended, so i went out to the toilet and suddenly tuckyo SHOUTED my name lahs. i think the whole corridor could hear it. so kukumalu lahs. den english period was fun with jon and jin leong being spastic.

assembly was quite cool lahs. matthew totally rocked. that crazy short guy.
stayed back in school for stuff den i got totally pissed off lahs. it's so... rahhhs.
walked to mrt with dennis, tammy and shalyn and was like.. ranting all my rahness to dennis and he did the same thing to me. hahas. dennis rocks lahs! hahahahas. and den some sec one dude started dissing me but thanks tammy and shalyn for sticking up for me but i didn't really care.

met up with deng to go ntuc to buy stuff for tomorrow's cg and crapped for while den came home. im so tired. bleaghs.

i dun understand, sometimes i wonder if THEY'RE doing IT for the sake of doing it or if THEY'RE doing it cause they wanna do it.

dennis is w-e-i-r-d. i liike. hahahas. oh wells, ciao!

school was fun again! hahas.
jon, vic and tuck wai were making us laugh.
rainer too! hahas.

so chinese, we had some crazy relief teacher and den sean started this game which was super fun but made my brain hurt. and rainer.. level 3 is i help you one ok?? hahas. ur genius-ness comes from me. hahas. it was cooold this morning too. hahas.

detention-ed after school.
chatted with jovina awhile den left to meet the CT at bugis.
so they sang to me as i was getting out of the cab =.=
hahas. got pulled around bugis street, AGAIN!!!!
but this time i enjoyed it.
walked around bugis junction and den train-ed back and we camwhored!
ok, we rock lahs!

but really had a great time with them today.
love them all!!!

PICTURES!!!

me and spastic deng kor kor! hahas.

xiao hua!
grp picture and deng looks so kukumalu!
reflection.
me and gladys!
SPASTIC! hahas.

today was a break for me.
a break from studying, ministry and family stuff.
met up with kar at amk mrt and we went to lavendar.
walked from lavendar mrt to army market and it took 15 mins.
den after tt walked from army market to bugis junction and it took 30 mins.
but i enjoyed spending time with her.
it's been a long time lahs. hahas.

so after burning all those calories, we went to replace them buy eating pastamania.
we wanted to eat other things but we were like, broke. hahas.
so shopped around awhile den deng, keith and martin came and she left.
so deng and keith pulled me and martin around bugis street but i didn't whine this time!! hahas.

so i guess i enjoyed my day. it was great.
sleeping now.
school tomorrow and school rocks! hahas.

w00t!
it's sunday morning now!
so anyway, had a great time at my dad's birthday party!
sorry gabriel!! we cudden play pool!

james came today! and he opened up to me alot.
dude, take care! God is on ur side!!
oh oh!! saw valentino and celine going for second service!
hahas. deyians rock!

sooo... went to seltar country club to help get ready for my dad's party.
and and and.. i saw ying zhi! chao surprised!! ahas.
crapped and played with gabriel, gerald, suyi, gary, jade, seon and my sis.
we bowled and all and burst balloons and made fun of gabriel.
basically just had a great night.
gabe! plan pool date soon soon soon ok?? hahas.

take care.
gg out with kar tomorrow!!
and i have not talked to xiao hua for 2 weeks already!!
time to do some catching up brother!!

another great but cold day in school.
was very sleepy throughout though.
after school, went to crash rainer's meeting.
walked back with muthu and we talked abt certain stuff lahs XD

serve with passion XD

keithy is so kukumalu.
tag on my board to be a happy tree!!!! hahas.
but.. thanks!!

great day in school.
5 periods of FnN was chao slack.
followed by another slacky period of english.
after recess had maths test and i passed! i didn't even study.

went to NYP after school and it was suck a waste of time.
i saw christine, wanting, wai leong and yong yang there!
went back to school to find james and we slacked in one of the classes with joshua.
me and joshua were talking about one tree hill! hahas.

went to get a drink with them den left for home talking about what we're gna do after Os and stuff. hahas.

k, home now and james may be coming this saturday! and jovina is coming next saturday!yay!

day started off by me dragging my sick self out of bed to get out of school.
went to school and provided rainer and others with their breakfast! hahaas.
so we finally decided to persuade james to join deyi star! and he's gna do well! he has God with him.

Had chinese test in the morning and i managed to finish whle sean chew gave up but it was hard lahs. den had Emaths den physics which was so free and easy. read jen's da vinci code magazine.
early reccess den had amaths and i love differenciation! and linhui now callls me MIMIMIMICHELLE!!! hahahas. whatever. while waiting for mr goh to come up for SS,tuckyo did some stupid and spastic things. Lunched with david and while talking to dennis, my tongue got giap-ed in my water bottle the sucking thingy. hahas.

went to foyer and saw james briefing like less den one fourth of the sec 3 student leadrrs on the investiture and was very proud of him. but you know, he's gna get the respect he deserves. He's all the way james!!!

went to Singapore Poly and was quite interested in the FOOD SCIENCE courses they have there. got back to school, loitered around school den left for home. Just finished my FnN task Analysis and miss rashidah was nice enough to cancel tomorrow's test! yea!

im starting to love school XD

sick sick sick.
im sick sick sick.
cough, flu and sore throat.
i was practically dying in school today.

school was quite fine lahs.
during chinese, sean kept me awake lahs but i was falling asleep still.
and talked to the ppl behind me today! ahas.
had chem and was crapping with van, lihong and rainer. it was funny.
geography, mr goh was talking abt da vinci code and me and jen were like, utter rubbish. hahas.

recessed with meiyi and shuwen.
den 3 periods of english were very slack.
assembly- BORING!!!!!
lunch-ed wit dennis, alyssa and wenzhen.
den alyssa and wenzhen dunno run to where so me and dennis went to find david.
slacked awhile den went to hall to observe investiture practice.

after tt, left to meet kar and job around 5 plus to go AMK hub.
yea.. shared to kar alot lahs.

came home and im gg to sleep. soon .

yesterday i was hurt.
reaal bad.
by someone who was pretending to be bryan wan.
maybe tt's why it hurt soo bad.
this idiot kept on calling me fat and insulting the way i looked.
i kept crying and crying and crying and i realised, there was nobody i could call to cry to.
cause knowing me, i'm someone who ates crying over the phone and i've only done it once.
it really sucked and it added to my depression.
and tht guy wudden leave me alone.

i was so sad and didn't want to believe it was him and thankfully it was not.
cause the bryan wan i know is nice :)
and he wudden hurt me this way.
but still, this incident made me move back into my comfort zone.
God, i feel so hurt. so depressed. i really hate the way i look.
why did u make me look this way. i've been criticized and judged countless times because of the way i look.

anyways.. today was a good day and being in school made me feel better. (i can't believe im saying tt)
i was really high this mornin, irritating skandan and all.
class was fun.. especially VE, cause of jon and jui hsin who were singing.
stayed back for my killer amaths paper.
sure fail.
headed to have macs for lunch den went to rix for meeting.
yepps. so convicted now.
went to popular and den saw VALENTINO on the way back and got his no. yay!
thanks mutton for being so accountable!!

the next few months are gna be tough for me.
real tough. i dunno what gna happen to me and stuff.
i dunno where to go from here.
God, i'm lost. real lost know.
there's no more sense of belonging already.
give me a direction.

was woken up at 730 to go and run some errands wit my mom and dad.
was real tired lahs.
den went to s11 to study by myself then wenzhen and jasmine came and i explained abit of stuff to jasmine.
den chicken kang came and we studied awhile.
den headed to cuppage.
today's sermon was really applicable to a problem im facing now.

it was during meal time dat i just had a sudden mood swing.
went to cuppage to find the grads ppl and i played abit of pool and got drenched in the rain. den went to study for awhile and i was just... mixed emotions. angry, sad, disappointed. it really affected my mood.

cabbed down to tanglin mall to meet my family and uncle lawrence's family for dinner. the food was good and had a fun time catching up with nicholas,jeremy and angie. btw, nicholas was one of my first childhood friends. sweet eh.. hahas.

oh wells. really tired now.

i dun understand. we were so close. we were tight and she was one of my best friends. she was one of the very few who knew how hard it was the last time.. she was the on i confided in and she was the on who enouraged me. and now it's happening again, even tougher and she's like not gna be there for me. God, i really dun understand.

twangs; i miss you.

my heart hurts.
and my knee hurts.
i shudden have went..
i know myself and i really cudden take it.
there were times when i just felt like running out of the room ut i had to be there for my friends. I have God to comfort me but they didn't really have anybody.

went to RC after everything and slept. gideon met a few of us after tt and we gt some stuff sorted out lahs. den went to study with the ON ppl. hahahahahs. had fun spasticing and crapping. but im really drained now. shall go and sleep soon! ciao!

for many of us.. all we were thinking about was that thing.
wanted to just kaboom at times but i knew i cudden.
but God's my source of comfort.
and i got great classmates around me.

so thanks everyone for today.
i fell down and got 2 big scratches on my knees.
and they bled and hurt.
did crazy crazy stuff with the class! woot! you guys rock.

i'm off!

it was just so sudden.
and i did not know how to react.

after a crazy CG, met up with almost the whole of 405 to do some stuff lahs. most of us teared and it was really heart-wrenching to hear her cries. but it's in times of trial and hardships when friendship grow tighter. enjoyed the bonding time. at first there was some awkward silence and den it suddenly got very noisy when ting fong got stuck to the chair. Jin Leong kept throwin peanut shells at me and hui hui was doing the octopus.

thanks 405 for ur care, concern and support. we're gonna go a looong way this year. can't wait for the sentosa trip XDD

really stressing myself out over this stupid amaths qualifying test.
rah rah rah.
but thanks PATRICK(nicholas) for praying for me!!! appreciated.

school was FUN!
but tuckwai kept hitting me and poking me today.
especially during assembly.
slacked in school till about 4 den left to AMK macs to continue studying.
den deng and pete came and we discussed tomorrow's cg.

ok. thanks james nepolian for ur stupid message. hahas.

something really encouraged me today.
saw one of my classmates sharing christ to another classmate in class.
i was touched.
but this classmate has not found a church that is right for him yet.
and i'm bringing him next sat for service!
but this guy, he really loves God alot.
yay!

okaes! lemme update about the past few days.
saturday: went for holy comm and was glad tt the whole team was there! faith, me, jingmei, jingting and aaron! had a great time crapping with them. but had to leave early to meet rachel. went to TCC and shared a pizza baguette thingy and we just sat there and talked about anything and everything. but really enojoyed the time we spent together. i was really refreshed during service and the worship was just so.. wow! i just kept tearing and was really touched by God's love. after service had a crazy time with NEA2 at meridien. We were just doing alot of crazy and stupid stuff. headed to RC for combined UCTM and talked to keith on the way. yepps. i really thank God for placing such a great friend in my life. UCTM was cool with the activities Gideon planned for us. Gideon then met ZION and after that slacked awhile den headed to comp chomp with deng, keith and rachel to CHILL! hahahas. loved the fellowship and all of us just got so high.

the food was ordered by rachel cause she knows what's best for us. headed to AMK central to meet yining and saw linhui, tuckwai and aiwei! hahas. they came my house and we started to webcam with the grads group guys. it was such a crappy conversation!

Sunday: basically, i stayed home all day and slept and ate and gave james a new nickname which is chicken! hahas. had tuition and i understand trigo! woot! hahas. had a time of reflection and stuff and den did some stuff, studied and slept at 2am.

Monday: school! was so reluctant to go but apparently, today the whole of 405 were just like mad. hahas, we were doing alot of crazy stuff. Had lunch with aiwei and gang after tt then left for RC for RC@RC. hahas. i was really sleepy lahs. hanged around for quite awhile den bussed back with kar and we talked. i love taking bus with her cause i just enjoy spending time with her XD reached home and now i have a really bad headache. but i still gotta study. take care jon and huitian. please get well reaalll soon!

ok, i know i should be studying now. but there is an issuse that i have to talk about here. Something that has been bothering me for quite some time already. It's the issue of setting priorities.

It's really irritating to see someone who does not know how to get their priorites straight. Some even come with privilages and still they don't prioritise. It gets me so angry sometimes, especially when they go and do something which is totally not beneficial to them. If you want to get your life straight, straighten out your priorities first. thank you.

shall end off on a happy note. i found more baby pictures of myself!




off to study!

omg. NEA2 ct just left my hse.
we went crazy eating marshmallows and was sharing webcam with the grads guys. hell funny lahs. tired now. shall post pics and update more tomorrow XD

just gt home from serangoon!
took 45. direct bus from my house to serangoon.
gt down at the wrong spot =.=

after PM headed to macs to study but we were crapping most of the time. hahas.
left for home.

just remembered something that happend on monday.

our classes are spilt up for chinese and we are split into bands. so obviously, im in band 5. and i was very sure sean was gg to be in my class. but by the time class started, he still had not come.
so i asked rainer:

me: i thought sean would be in our class.
rainer: no la, his chinese is average lah.
me: oh.. so he would prob be in 407 or 406.
rainer: yea.
*5 minutes later, sean walks into the class*
me: i told you! aiya.. expected one lahs.
sean: i got kicked out of 406 cause too many people.

hahahahas.

michelle is sick.
very sick.
there's blood in her phlegm.
boohoo =(

i missed school today.
managed to get out of the house to meet my cg for death note 2.
had pizza hut for lunch den went for the movie and me and rach were high.
death note 2 rocked lahs.
i think Light is fatter. hahas. he put on weight.
but L still rocks!
but in the end, both of them died =(

something happened after that and i was super worried. really really worried. but thanks Kar for comforting me XDD

went to j8 to meet my sister den my dad sent us home.
shall try sleeping early tonight XDD

yesterday, herlina gave me chocolates.
YAY!!!!! hahahas. so random.

school was boring today lahs. kept wanting to sleep + i felt sick and was having stomach cramps.
had EMATHS common test after school and jui hsin and tuckwai kept irritating me!! ahhhs. they kept poking me lahs. ahhhhs.

went to canteen after that and hanged out with the student leaders. we talked about stuff and i'm glad i was able to enlighten them! hahahas. wheee...

i feel like strangling james nepolian. lols.
walked back with some of the student leaders and saw PETE at the bus stop.
sleepy and hungry now! and i gta study for test!
go michelle go!

kays. im feeling alot better today.
really alot better.

tired day in school. was quite boring. recess-ed with james XDD
had assambly and student leaders had to say the student creed. i was cursing dennis. lols.
had SL meeting/spot check in the hall then styed back to talk to rainer and sean abt some stuff.
lunched with rachel den chatted with the junior SLs and i'm glad i was able to give them some advice. went to join sean, rainer, annabel, fiona and matthew.

went to city hall with rainer, sean, fiona and annabel after that to get sean's guitar fixed. walked around and homed. wheee..

k.. me gta STUDY!!!!!!

something lame.
sean: how do you expand ideas?
me: i-space-d-space-e-space-a-space-s= i d e a s

heeees.

i felt like running to my mom to just cry out and share all my troubles.
but i know this time is a no-no.

the past few days have been emotionally horrible for me.
im slowly moving back into my comfort zone.
no matter how hard i try to ignore the names people call me.
it has been happening everyday ever since school reopened.
i mean, if u hear the same thing everyday,
you're bound to become sensitive to it.
it's making me feel, well, really lonely.
like other than God, i find it hard to talk to other ppl.
(sorry shepherd and SB, i just find it really hard to talk to anyone now.)

God.. I want all of it to stop!!!!

breakdown?
nahs, ain't gna happen.
(prayerfully it wont)

im just really drained lahs.
and sometimes i dun understand why people dun understand.

tired, confused...
i need time to study.
all i'm asking for is 2 weeks. tt's all.

im just really tired.

wheee!! back and i'm tired after two looooong days!
after a fun day of school, cabbed back home with sean chew to get camp stuff den met up with him to cab back to school! reached school, slacked around with louisa den the amazing race started. alot of stuff happened but let's just say i was glad when it was finally over.

campfire was quite screwed up too but then, it all turned out well. spent most of my night with rainer, nurul, timothy and priscilla. slept at the canteen for less than 2 hrs den started walking around.

sec one had their CCA trail today.i fell asleep in the student leaders' room. went to watch abit of the concert den cabbed down to service. was really sleepy the whole day.

today ended with me thinking about alot of stuff. I need a direction.

school was fun again!
the after recess part. hahas.
all of us were falling asleep during the 5 periods of FnN!
during chem and VE, was crapping with hui2, jen, doreen, tuck wai and juihsin! super kuku talk. hahas.

after school i just intended to go get consent form from nurul but ended up getting stuck in school until 5 with sec one orientation and a meeting after tt.

im really glad i was able to apply things i learnt in church to the world XD

sec one camp tomorrow!! time to...
you know you know.. hahas.

first day of school wussen all that bad.
kinda of enjoyed it.
just tt sec one orientation was quite screwed up.
oh wells.

glad i stayed in class.
had fun with huihui and linhui!
hahas. the huis!!
the 3 of us can't pon school anymore.
we got mrs ang as our form teacher!!! hahahas. ahhhhhhs.


CG wussen tt good. but i believe all of us have learnt from this!
okaes..

qualifying test in 2 weeks.
gta study study study!

w00t!

just alot of pics i owe! hahas. the pics are self-explanatory . enjoy!

tomorrow school is reopening.
tt night rachel asked..
am i ready to go back into the world?
a world where you mix with non-church people?
a world where you have other things then ministry to worry about?

i'm not sure if im ready or not.
but i know God will guide be through this new year.
yepps! this is gna be a great year!

anyways.. sec one orientation! sec 4s are ready to be slackers MENTORS!!! we will bully guide the junior SLs, irritate follow the sec ones and skip sacrifice the first day of class! hahas.

w00t!!! (i like this word)

w00t!!! hahahahas.
HAPPY 2007 peoples!!!
had a great night. will upload pics of EVERYTHING soon!!!
like camp and christmas and other stuff.

had a really great new year's eve!
had a very nice time with my relatives and friends.
it rocked lahs.
went to rach's house to stayover and had 3 crazy rounds of tai dee!! lols.
slept at about 5 woke up at about 11 and went for brunch.
whee! gg for Isaiah's Bday party later!