Goodbye Blogger!

Dear Blogger!
You have been a great ranting place for me for the past 4/5 years.
thanks for everything.
but now it's time for me to move on.
but i'm still keeping this place for memories' sake.

till then: CLICK HERE!!!!

changes

i'm so scared of changes.
yet, everything around me is changing, well, sort of.
my relationships/friendships with people are changing, and i'm afraid that I may be losing some close friends. My family is changing, people are changing, circumstances and situations, and is less than 6 months, I'll be changing classes again.

for the past week, a lot of "what ifs" and flashbacks have been whirring through my head.

change change change...
but one thing that will never change is my unchanging God.
And just with that, it gives me so much more assurance.

yea. so it's past 12 and it's shivv's bday!!
happy birthday babe!
really glad to have someone like you in my class this sem. if not, i would probably just die. hahas!! love ya babe! thnks for being there for me and getting crazy and bitch with me! enjoy your day!!

so today during break 2, me, shivv and labin went to 711 for lunch and we sat there. and den we observed the people walking by and tried to think what they were thinking and tried to guess their names. it was lameeeeeeee. but funnnnnn. and the cake was oh so yummy!

let's see.. u knw wad. not matter how sad or depressed im feeling, this class here always picks my mood up. i love ya w45l! and hafiz and ika and syaf, i still love you guys too!

i just needed some time alone just now. but thanks people for cheering me up =D

finally! group picture!

anyways.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAFIZ SAYANG!
18 already ar... grow up kays! hahas.
Really blessed to have such a great friend like you in my life. I know that recently you have been scolding me and stuff and I got pissed at you but I know that it is all for my own good and I know that you care for me very much. You're really such a great friend and words can't say how much I want to thank you for being there for me all the time when I'm feeling down or sad, for bearing all my PMS and temper moments. Really really thanks a lot! Your girlfriend is so lucky to have a guy like you. And I am soo lucky to have a *ahem* best friend like you! Love ya Hafiz! Thanks for everything, for being my friend, for accepting me for who I am. You rock la!
HUGS!

and sooo..
i think syaf almost wanted to kill me today.
cause i forgot to bring sayang's present!!!!
and i wanted to message syaf... but... I MESSAGED HAFIZ INSTEAD!
zzzz.. and hafiz replied.
and I was laughing to myself in the train.
sorry hafiz and sorry syaf!!! hahas.


this was taken during break 2 when all i wanted to do was got to 711 to get my seventeen magazine and in then we were out of class for 3o mins. Kept getting distracted! heeheee... totally love the pic. But missing shivv. Yups. Labin was getting pissed at us cause we kept talking about girl stuff and we were all gathered at my place looking at nat's seventeen magazine before i decided to go and buy my own. yea! they totally make me happy lahs!


and these are the friendship bands we got yesterday cause of my random retardedness. lijie and shivv have one too! cool right!

ok.. soo.
i think it was the milo i drank, my stomach started to hurt just when third meeting started. went to the toilet 5 times. it was bad bad bad. and plus, tt feeling plus hungry feeling, it's even worse. but im better now although i have not eaten dinner. no intention of eating either. and one more thing (this is such a random post)

oh, and just now me and rahman caught up for awhile as i happened to meet him on my way to meet syaf and yes la scandal, u cut hair still cute lahs!! hahahahhahas!

on a less random side:
Thanks des, yeshen and james for encouraging me and for your care and concern this week. and Darryl too! and Shivv! and ika and syaf and hafiz!

and you know what, I'm feeling happier already. =D

nights people and loves!

it's only tuesday and I am trying to deal with changes and setbacks and also finding some stuff out.
to know that so many thoughts and emotions and feelings have been flying through my mind and heart for the past 2/3 days which cause me to have a lack of sleep and appetite. And not forgetting my bronchitis which causes me to not sleep well too.

And so many things are happening now, that is really putting me to tests of friendships. But I felt so much better after hanging out with labin, shivv and lijie!

Sayang's Bday tomorrow!
and I am going to sleep now!

AND AND AND.. whatever is happening now, I know that I will get through it!

this change is just way too big and too weird for me to handle.
how how how?
i dunno how to deal with it so i'll just try to ignore it.
and every time i think about, i get really nervous cause I feel like i'm gna lose another close friend sooner or later.

im starting to get pissed at almost all the guys.

i really wish to be left alone.

other than that.
class was super duperly fun today.
we were so havoc-ed? (is there such word?)

and today I realised that I was not the only one having such problems.
thanks shivv and labin for the talk we had just now.
cheer up guys! hate to see you guys like that!

so now how?

life's a bitch.

but not when you have the greatest and sweetest friends around who will put aside everything just to make sure you are okay.

who will try their best to do all that are within their means to make sure that you are safe and that you are happy all the time.

"Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there."

how true, how true.
and my friends have proved this.
i love you guys, really really love you.
and you guys know who you are.

thanks for standing by me throughout this really tough period. through all the breakdowns and depressing stuff. I really feel so much closer to you guys now. And even though things are changing, I know that you guys will always be there for me no matter what.

ika and hafiz and syaf, thanks for everything. really!

step by step, kick by kick, poke by poke, im gna get through this!

im sorry.

i have no time for anything nowadays.
it's just so stressful.

breakbrokedown.

good night.

Laughlines

eI just simply adore reading postsecret. I think that it is just so fun and interesting to read other peoples' secrets. But that is not the point of this blog post.

The point is: Looks are not everything in our life. Even the most beautiful girl or the hottest guy in the World may be the most lonely and most depressed person. The important thing is that we keep ourselves happy and just be ourselves. To know that no one will ever be alone in this world because there will always be a someone or someones out there who care for you.

Bottom line is: Smile people! You may feel lonely but you know that you'll never be alone.

I finally let everything out this morning.
So many things have happened this week that really put me in a spot.
And I really held on strong, I held back my tears and everything.
And this morning, I just could not hold them back anymore.
So... I ran to the toilet and just hid in the cubicle and cried for 5 minutes.
And after that, syaf started to cheer me up and everything was much much better.
and thanks shivv, for comforting me too =D

Hafiz and Ika and Syafiq, you three have no idea how much I treasure you guys and thanks for being there for me through this tough week. Love ya guys!

- my stomach still hurts, i'm gna rest soon.

i did something really dumb today.
and it was kind of dangerous.

sorry sayang and ika, i promise not to worry you guys like tt again. I LOVE YOU GUYS LIKE SO SO SO SO MUCH! thanks for your care and concern. and syaf, I love you too luhs! hahas.

I got an A.
But no apology.
But let the past be the past, let bygones be bygones.

Class is fun today. As per usual. Really helps me to take my mind off things.
Jing Hao was irritating me, so I told him this: i've got 2 slippers: one to stuff in your mouth and one to hit your head.
Enjoyed today's lesson =D

UT was tough man.
Omgzzzzz....

Leading worship later in CG. I am so excited you know XD Heees.

Loves and misses people XDD

almost punched *HER face today.
so insensitive lahs.
but I made my stand already.

but I am so disappointed in myself.
why couldn't I just stand up to her on the spot.
why was I such a coward.
why was I so afraid.
whatever happened to courage.

but I know that God is molding to become a better and stronger Christian for Him.
and thanks deng, qians, jaz and sly <3

*and still, im getting over it.

sorry for the emotional post.
needed to get it out and I felt much better after that.

and best of all, I found comfort in my God after worshipping Him and playing my guitar.

I found comfort in You.

I'll be okay soon people, I promise =D

those words

to imagine that it took me so long to realize that you didn't really care, i don't know.
and i called you my best friend.

and to know that you are not understanding of me.
i was feeling so down and all you could say were those few words.

I may be strong, but I do have feelings too.
I feel that I have wasted so much time on you and I feel that all I did was worth nothing to you.

You have no idea how much those word hurt.
It was like a sword piercing through my heart.

You really have no idea,
And I really thought that you were different from the others.

Those words, they brought tears to my eyes.
After such a long time, I feel like crying.


On a lighter note, I totally love my classmate so much. Unknowingly, they really made me happy.

Hoiliday Week

In the end, my holiday didn't turn out to be a jam-packed week.
but I still really enjoyed the rest I got.
Tuesday we celebrated our dear Lynn's Birthday at Costa Sands Downtown East. And by fate, my dearest mel was in the room one door away from us =D

we met this little boy during the bbq. He was the most adorable thing ever.

watching sunset with jaz and nigel.

didn't manage to get any sleep at all and slept in total 20 hours when I got home. And was down with slight food poisoning which led me to cancel "class" outing on wed night and miss CG steamboat on thursday. Friday's outing was cancelled too due to lack of people being able to go. But oh wells, another time =D

Service yesterday was awesome and I decided to stay back later to fellowship as I have not been doing that for quite some time already. Left PS at 11 plus and was afraid that I was going to miss the last 265 home, but I prayed and my prayer was answered cause I managed to catch the very last bus home.

School's tomorrow..
And I encourage everyone to go and watch the movie: Freedom Writers.
It's one of the best movies I have ever watched.

till then,
BYE!

sunday morning and the rain is falling...

I'm getting too lazy to blog.

Yesterday was nice.
With CG at rix and service and dinner with the kuku RP people.
Bussed home and then met SLY for supper.

Couldn't go out today because of some stuff.
So stayed home and did a lot of housework.

HOLIDAY WEEK!
Jam-packed week yo!

Anyways, last night I started to realize that I have had a lot of broken relationships. Recently too, and I started to cry because I don't know what is it I did, but I invested a lot of time, emotions and sometimes even money in these people and what I got back was a total cut off from their lives. To know that some of them left my life without a message. Many promises were broken and stuff and I have gone through a lot of emotional pain. But now, I know that this is part and parcel of life and we can't always camp in the past hurts and discouragements, but most importantly, we have to move on with life. Sometimes, I wish that nothing had happened between us. It's like. your once close friends are still close friends with each other, and they have totally like cut-off contact with you. Or even other things.

I guess, this is just life. A bed of roses, because roses have thrones.

But to know that now, after all this has passed, I have so many great friends and loved ones to spur me on. New friends, old friends, they have been great to me.

Really, a blessing in disguise.

Cabut Class

today slyboy didn't go school- boring cause no morning laughter
today was enterprise- boring cause i don't really like enterprise and the faci is really naggy.
only a few people turned up to class on time- boring cause..... like that lahs.

and so... what did we do?
WE CABUT-ed of course.
Left with one team in class during 3rd meeting.

so, those in the picture plus ben and vivian left class. Ben and vivian didn't join us for the movie though. We went to CWP to watch Tropic Thunder. Damn funny lahs. So many unexpected things. And the little boy was damn cute. Slacked around, took pictures, relived our childhood and slacked outside CWP.

All in all, it was a fun day. Despite that message that I got. I was expecting it anyways. Thanks sayang and ika for being there for me. And I'm fine =D

i've got you babe

i seriously think my comm. faci thinks i'm an ambulance. hahas.

my dearest love ika had a panic attack today. well, i panicked too and seriously thank God that Nat had an inhaler or else i would have had a panic attack too. And I heard that they started to call Nat Doraemon cause she has everything that we need! hahas! and in that small little blue/green bag of hers. hahas.


so before first meeting ended, I was already out of the class on my way to E3 after getting 4 missed calls from Sly. Thanks weili for the concern and offering to help me buy food =D yups. And was there throughout trying to calm her down. Thanks to her classmates, we managed to get her to the physiotherapy room at the sports complex and after much persuasion, she agreed to go to the clinic. Ika ar, dun stubborn already ar.

So went to the clinic and left class to accompany her but it was all worth it. I doubt I could have concentrated with her in this state, seriously. Sent her home and the 2 little toddlers she babysits are super adorable =D heeheehee. Glad that she's feeling better now. Thanks all for the help XD

Got back to school and I was hungry so called sayang and syaf to accompany. Then they had to rush off so i da baoed to go back class and eat. And in the end, I bumped into sly, sha and farhan and had lunch with them. Fun ar =D

Decided to stay for third meeting but got the faci to mark me as partial cause I didn't really feel like doing any work.

And that's about it for my day!
Take care ika!

and we're still waiting....

hee. i drew that for benjaboo today. don't you agree it looks like him? hahas.

school was alright today. was feeling abit sleepy and all and UT was quite easy. Hope to get an A. Craziness in class as usual. Break 1 was with gummy and sayang. sayang ar sayang, dun be emo anymore kays. you really made me worry about you.

computing was alrights. meiyang and me chatted during presentation. stayed back with weili, nat and labin while waiting for hafiz. after that, we met together to go home, den nat wanted to go CWP so sayang went home first. Den me, nat and labin went CWP. shopped a bit, talked a lot. Went to starbucks to chill and talked a bit. Really love chilling with them. They are awesome company.

Daddy came to bring me home. Waited for rainer to go Sean's place to chill and transfer stuff. Supper and home. And i'm so tired today. Cognitive tomorrow and Jacq is coming back.

Hmmmmms, sometimes I can't stand RP and I wish I could transfer to TP for some reasons, some reasons, but when I think about it, I can't bear the thought of leaving sayang, ika, syaf, jaz, sly, w45L and w25K behind.

some stupid thoughts of mine.
oh wells, NIGHTS!

updates!

people, I'm still alive.
got a lot of things to post about.
Meiyang's and Lijie's bday, Advance, My sis's and her friend's Gina's bday celebration, the craziness going on in class....

soon, i will sit down and post about all of them.

but till den, take care peeps!

school is fun!

yea. lameass title.
but school is really damn fun.
my class is full of crazy wacky people.
but it comes to a point where i'm afraid to leave the class for long periods of time in fear that my things would go missing.

anyways, finally, full class attendance.
awesome right???
and took class photos.
basically, whole day was with my class.
casually bumping into jaz and simon!

and simon ar simon,
cheer up kays!
you don't like your class, never mind, can always visit my class! hahahas.
and study hard for your Os kay? dun waste money!

so anyways, after school slacked with nat and weili at TRCC cafe and we just chatted and stuffs and enjoyed a lot.

so, till den, bye!

our sweetest smiles :)

this picture was taken last week.
today was damn fun.
firstly, science was easy peasy.

secondly, we hid val's laptop.
the whole entire scene was damn funny.
she is damn blur okay.

initially, we hid the laptop in Jing Hao's bag, cause she would least suspect him.
den she came back and realized that her laptop was gone, she just laughed and her face turned red. Val's red plus round face made her head look like a tomato. She didn't even bother to thoroughly search for her laptop.
den we wanted to pass the laptop to another person, but she was looking, so we told her that her laptop was at the pantry. But she came back too fast, so this Jun Yang told her that she did not check all 4 corners and Valencia actually went to check. And so, we passed the laptop to shamira and the faci was in class with us the whole time.

and faci didn't rat us out either. hahas.

so, after 30 mins of laughing till my stomach hurt, we decided to give it back to her.
but we made her go out of the class first and she went to the toilet. After that, we took her laptop to the front of the class and placed it there. Pei Rong even helped us to connect her mouse.

And here's the best part:
she came back and walked past the laptop without realizing it was even there. So blur right! Val ar Val.....

And that's the end of the ultimate prank.
I've got awesome classmates.




SO ANYWAYS...
Lunch was with classmates. And we went to support ZUZU at South Agora. She was performing with B.E. She's the tall one in the middle hold the Maracas. It was cool! And then watched cheerleaders and then lunch. I ate Ban Mian.


All in all, class has been awesome today. Although class has not even ended. And thanks Syaf for the kuih! (which I will be getting later)

edited at 3:48 Pm
I saw my BEST FRIEND Asyrani Lin Nian Zhong and I couldn't recognize him cause he cut his hair FREAKING short. But handsome lah. So I have concluded: Asyrani with long hair is cute and Asyrani with short hair is handsome!

Dear God, forgive me for I have just sinned! hahahas!

Signing off with love,
Michelle

friends

happened to come across this while browsing through http://postsecret.blogspot.com.
and how true it is.

i love all my friends. new and old. And I have never regretted giving up anything for them.

today is Friday,

we all had really big smiles cause nat did something stupid before the picture was taken.
happy people happy people!
and im still sick!!! omgz, cause of the tidbits and kuih and zuzu's kuih is so nice can...
oh well, im so sleepy.
and i was bored the whole day.
cause syaf went to KL so didn't come school.
sayang for some reason didn't come school.
and ika and sly left school.
and my dear jaz is sick.

last team is presenting now....

Cause It's the Start of Something New

yups. that's me and my new classmates from W45L.
we were camwhoring like crazy today.
and there are more pics from me and natalie.
and you can see val's round head in most of the pictures.

was sick in school today.
but nonetheless ate the super nice kuehs that classmates bought.
alrightos, many activities planned for the month of October.
super duper duper excited!

current tv addictions

i've been watching many shows online recently:

Gossip Girl Season 2
Heroes Season 3
Desperate Housewives Season 5
Greek Season 2
90210 Season 1
Grey's Anatomy Season 5
Ugly Betty Season 3

And I recently finished:
Veronica Mars Season 1 to 3
The Secret Life of The American Teenager

Anyways.
I fell sick last night.
With sore throat and flu and cough and head ache.
And my throat hurt so much today.
I had to cancel on Sly.
And didn't get to go for badminton.

Thanks people for your concern XD

happy birthday han dengdeng!

happy 19th birthday jared han yeong deng!

you've been a great buddy and brother-in-christ to me.
no doubt, you are one of the people who have impacted and influenced my life the most.
it has been such a joy growing with you.
from the combining of care groups, to the forming of the core team, to leading and growing NEA2 together, to tuition and through O levels and now facing this big giant called RP, it has just been a joy.
thanks for caring for me and for being such a great friend. And for always disturbing me and irritating me, thanks for everything dengky! 2 more years in RP, we're going to get through this together. Till the end Deng!

reality check

reality.
facing it is hard.
but it's something you have got to live with.

truth is, I have been feeling super down for the past 2 or 3 weeks already.
but I find that there is no point dwelling in my sadness.
it's like, I can choose to dwell, or I can choose to be optimistic.
but sometimes, you just have to face it.
cause, you can't run away from it, not for long that is.

I want to face up to reality, but I don't know how.

4bia

is a freaking scary movie!
omgzzzz. hahas.
definitely not for the weak hearted.

anyways, happy 18th Pei Rong!
yups. class was quite fun today.
cause the problem was easy,
and my team was all girls.

den, labin is going to bring kueh for us on monday! hahas.
so come on monday kays!!!

wheee.. teenage icon tomorrow!
go n support sly, farhan, sya and iqmal and wear red tomorrow!!! wheee!

Crease.......

Started off with microecons today in Enterprise.
It was really very interesting and I am starting to enjoy Enterprise.
And our faci turned out to be very niceeee.

Learnt this from tucky and shared it with shivv and labin.
Faci: So is it increase or decrease?
Us: (obviously we don't know the answer) CREASE...........................

Watched 4bia in class today.
Part 1 and Part 2.
I was damn scared and was hiding behind my jacket the whole time and Jane and Labin were sitting next to me. hahahas.

So, I randomnly asked my teammates what they were going to do on tuesday. Since we RP students have the day off.

Shivv: maybe going to the bank.
Michelle: going cycling.
Labin: staying home to make kueh!
HAHAHAHAHAS!!! So cute right. Labin never fails to make me laugh.

Awaiting the day offs!
And after that, UTs will start =(

So long for now.

peanut butter MnMs

hahahs. i love peanut butter MnMs!!!
had them for breakfast today along with Big M strawberry milk and it kind of lasted me the whole day.

alrights.
so school. relief faci for jacq. was not use to him and break with nat.
and today's problem was tough okays. but i managed to pull through.
was irritating people during break 2 as i was not feeling very hungry.
oh! and i watched heroes season 3 episode 1!!! ahhhhs!! awesomeness!

hmms.
left school with dengzzzzzzz and bussed home
talked to kiddo when i got home and tt kiddo ar, kena bashed! haiz. hahahas.
but, i really miss him and all of w25k.
but im feeling quite at home with w45L.
cycling next tues and i can't wait for after hari raya cause den i can lunch with gummy!
loves!

my guardian angel :)

the song I listen to when I am feeling down is My Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Mommy sent a short email to us. And I teared. I remembered her saying once that she believes in guardian angels. I believe in them too. And my mommy is my guardian angel. Mommy, even though you probably won't read this, I just want to tell you that I believe in guardian angels too and that guardian angel is you.

I love you mommy. No words can express how much I do.

And because of some happenings recently, I have been really down and really exhausted. And it has affected my mood quite a lot. And today it kind of got to me. And I am sorry team for becoming so emotional of a sudden. I was quite pissed but then you guys cheered me up again. So sorry. And thanks sayang and jazreel for being there.

But today's lesson was enjoyable. And stayed back to watch stupid videos.
Really looking forward to the 2 day holiday next week.

And Ika just signed off. I miss her so much. Can't wait for after Hari Raya. Den we can have lunch together again! yays! love you babes!

i've been crying myself to sleep for the past few nights.
sometimes i care too much about others that i neglect myself.

random nonsense

labin says im an asshole.
and den he says that nat is a bigger asshole.
but i strongly believe tt he's a bigger asshole den me and nat put together.
(asshole= irritant)

some random conversations between me and labin:

Scenario 1: Labin was so happy after finding his PSP while spring cleaning and michelle borrows it.
mich: labin, can I bring your psp home?
labin: i just found it and now you want to bring it home?
mich: *silence*

Scenario 2: Mich and Labin were talking about hamsters.
labin: do you know, I threw a hamster out of the window once.
mich: wth? why!!
labin: because it was irritating me and it bit my ear.
mich: but still, why?
labin: i was still young. you know, small and cute labin doesn't know what he is doing...

this guy, never fails to crack me up with his randomness. hahas.

you are my sunshine

credits to darryl for the picture.
went to adjust the brightness and contrast.

totally enjoying my classmates. they make such boring lessons enjoyable.
break 1 was with nat. that crazy spastic girl.
and lunch with lynn and co.
and simon was there! yays!
im feeling so tired now..
yawns.
and i'm home early!!!
but too bad didn't get to meet up with rainer.
timing clash.
oh wells.

anyways.. go and support HereGoesNothing! at the teenage icon semi finals this sat at the hereen!

old maid

well, my title. hahas.

school was alright today, the non-work part.
and Labin was entertaining me and laughing with me the whole day.
yays!

Laughed a lot luhs.
Lunched with deng and qians. Those runaways!

looking forward to tomorrow!
dating ikagummy! yay!

happy belated birthday wongyeshen!

yup. yesterday was wongyeshen's sweet 16.
and it happened to fall on 中秋节。(Mid-Autumn Festival)
thank you wongyeshen for being such a great friend.
many many fond memories with you.
especially when you were up at 1 or 2am teaching me digestion for my O levels.
you have no idea how much I appreciate you and treasure you as a friend and a fellow brother in christ.
jiayou for your O levels. It's the last lap and I have as much faith in you as I have in God.
Let's continue running this race together brother, and we'll see each other at the end.
TO THE END!

anyways, about today.
I apologize firstly to weili. Cause I injured his face by accidentally slamming the door in his face. I feel so horrible. SORRY WEILI VERY VERY MUCH!!! 我不是故意的。

much laughter today.
and shivv, please take care and get well soon.

dinner was with the SLC mates at chomps.
followed by dessert.
much laughter again.

anyways, preparing for tomorrow, another day of school again. bye!

thunder

let's see.
I don't like woody woodpecker.
think the class will know what I'm talking about.
my God.

but overall, class was alright today lahs.
the no work part.
and shivv was entertaining me and vice versa.
we have to stock up on DABAOs!

hahas.
chilled with gummy after school and den took a bus home and slept.
haiz.

sorry sayang for always throwing my mood swings on you.

my new friends

valencia, shivv and me.
my new classmates and source of entertainment

hafiz sayang didn't come school today.
bleaghs.

Mr. Funny

Title inspired by Weili's shirt. heeheehee.
Anyways, I apologize to weili for jacking him during presentation! HAHAHAHAS!
sorry luhs weili.

My class is getting along well.
But sometimes the atmosphere is very tense.
Guess we're still getting to know people.

Shivv has been harassing me with her HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA moving emoticon.

anyways, i was feeling very sian-ed and moody this morning.
sorry if i hace offended anyone.
thanks hafiz for cheering me up.
met up with syaf, ikagummy and hafiz sayang during break 2.
celebrated zhimei's bday before tt.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIMEI!!! wheeee!!

yupyupyup.
tt's all for now.
i'm missing all my facis... and W25K of course.

ciao!

RESPECT

I was so turned off by a certain someone today.
It's no use apologizing when all you're going to do is repeat the same thing again and again.
Women need respect too.
My gosh..
Keep your male "thoughts" to yourself please.
Ever heard of being a gentleman?
And, can you talk less? I would appreciate that a lot.

Met up with ika, hafiz and syaf today!
whee!
okaes, I think I'm PMSing or something. I'm super cranky and tired.
Well, I shall go to bed soon.

how's life?

i dunno what to put as my title post.

well, i'm really glad that I have really fun classmates this semester.
and I ain't going to compare to my previous class cause everyone is different.

And to my W25K classmates:
I know that nobody likes changes.
And that we all miss each other like crazy.
But you know, we should dwell in the past but instead look forward to the future and wait for what it has in store for us. It's not the class that makes us so close, it's the friendship that we have that will last. And I love and miss every single one of you.

But at a certain point in time, we have to learn to move on.
I'm not saying that I have moved on yet, but i'm slowly adapting to this new environment.
and I say this one more time: It's really not about the environment or location, but it's really about the friendships formed.

I know that our friendship will last.
And once again, I love every one of you!

And Ika, Syaf and Hafiz: I miss you guys dearly.

it's all about choices

*Christian Post Ahead*
Now's the emo generation.
Why is it called the emo generation?
Cause peoples' hearts are shattered.

I CHOOSE TO BE PART OF THE GOD GENERATION!
and nothing YOU say or YOU do will stop me or bring me down.
IN YOUR FACE!!!!

new sem, new class, new faces

well.. first day of sem 2. and it's a wednesday.
couldn't sleep last night.

daddy fetched me and sly to school today.
me, sly and farhan slacked in the canteen and farhan was so blur and funny.

well, my class is not bad. few jokers here and there.
cognitive faci is cool.
but i still miss the people of w25k.
and have not seen ika today =(

oh wells.

im growing shorter

I happened to bump into wongyeshen and guozhang at the bus stop today.
And then I was standing in between them. Like, the towers in KL and i'm the bridge.
And then, they were like arguing who's phone is better and stuff and they are like, so tall and I felt like they were buzzing above me. Like, they have forgotten my existence cause im shorter than them! hahahas.

those 2 ar...

well, shit happens

I survived my whole day Saturday on 2 hours of sleep.
And thank God, I was not cranky at all despite having CG Prayer Meet followed by Service. And it was seriously a long day. Got to thank God for giving me strength to last the whole day.

Bus ride home was like.. erghs..
The bus was like so crowded cause if the IT fair.
Well, stuff happened and I felt like really helpless and kind of, shitty?
And I started to tear and stuff. But was able to control.
But then, I was reminded of what Ps Jasmine said, that if we do not know what to do, we should just pray. And that's exactly what I did.

But my mom called me when I was on 265 and she was like, nagging and lecturing and I was so exhausted and I started to feel so down again. So I got home, I bathed (for some reason, I felt so sticky the whole day...) And then, I talked to Rainer.

And I was so angry at myself for always being too nice and for being so vulnerable. And even when I don't feel like helping people, I still do. And I was reminded that, it is what makes me, me. And he said the important thing was that I tried and that God made me this way and I should find joy in helping people. And the next thing I said to him was: I want prata.

But that's not the point.

So anyways, really thanks a lot Rainer Chiam Ming Yang. You are seriously the best.

And now, I am having a splitting headache. Off to bed now!

UPDATES!

So let's see...

Thursday:
I had nothing to do. Actually, I did. I made jelly for the class BBQ and rainer came over too! yay! And taught him a bit of guitar and he sat in my chair! rahhhhs. Went to AMK Hub to look for some stuff for my mom. Den got my 2 water guns from NTUC! Sent my cousin back to states at night.

Friday:
Teachers' Day Celebration. I decided not to go cause I was too lazy and too tired. And in the end rainer called me trying to wake me up (I think) but in the end they were only let in at 12. And so, when I woke up, we wanted to go get something to eat. And he was nice enough to give in to me so he came to my place to have prata. but the prata shop was closed! so we had botak jones! yays! and pizza! and den, i came home and got ready for class bbq (get ready = playing guitar!! hurhurhur!) cabbed down to RP to pass sly and ika money and den cabbed to east coast! OH! and I saw karen and I have not seen her for like, 4 years already.

Class BBQ was awesome. Started by playing BLACKJACK and bet on hot dogs! can you believe it? HOT DOGS!!!! This crazy class of mine. hahas. Den started the fire and the BBQ and started eating and den, I took my water guns and that's when the real fun started! I was the one who provided the weapons, LYNN and ASK were the ones who created havoc actually! IT WAS SO DAMN FUN! and in the end: me, simon, nigel, ask, lynn, eileen, MF and eunice were soaking wet. And it was very cold. Slack slack slack, stuffed myself with food, and den cabbed home with nigel.

Home:
Was settling some stuff and didn't fall asleep until around 2 plus. I fell asleep at 3 with no problem, and then Daphne text me! So I woke up. Fell back asleep and suddenly had a sleep start. It's like when your sleeping and you suddenly jerk awake. Took some time to get back to sleep. Finally, fell back asleep and den suddenly I heard a car honking and suddenly, BANG!!! and I was woken up again and could not get back to sleep. Watched TV, chatted online a bit, and at 530 am in the morning, I text Rainer and told him the word is VULNERABLE!!! hahahas. Only properly slept around like, 7 or 8am. and woke up at around 1045. Long day ahead. God please strengthen me throughout the day! CIAO! Pictures will be up soon.

A BBQ and a Water Fight

as you can see, some of are soaking wet. I was too! It was so damn fun! I love these people! Will blog more pictures soon!! LOves!

cupcakes cupcakes!!!

gummy came over yesterday.
and we baked cupcakes
everything was made from scratch. including the icing. and they taste awesome!


the end product! pretty right?

My New Class

Let's see.
So, so far, i know 2 people who are in my class.
BTW, my class is W45L.

Azlan, from Orientation and Warren from Replug.
Got to find out from benjamin that there's this other guy in my class who is quite nice.
oh, and dhivv and ben and raymond are on the same level as me!
and sly and farhan and jaz are on the 7th level and zhimei is on the fifth.

awesomeness.
but still, it will never be the same as W25K.

W25K BBQ!

Alrights People! Listen up!!!

W25K BBQ!
Friday, 29 August 2008
East Coast Park Area C, Pit 30
BBQ starts at 5.
Meet at ECP Macs at 4 XD
Feel free to bring food if you want!!!!
And, for those who have not paid, it's $10 each!
Yupyup!!! See you all there!
Any questions, call me or jazreel!
If you don't have our numbers, get it from someone!
ciao ciao!

updates

nothing much going on.
cycled yesterday, body aches today.
ika came back yesterday. missed her tonns.
jaz has been working with eileen and lynn, leaving me with no one to irritate online.
JUMP concert was totally awesome and it was nice to see many familiar faces and to catch up with people I miss.
Rainer has been making me wait for so many things. bleaghs.

dental appt tomorrow.
and... i was feeling abit, seh seh, just now and then I saw NICHOLAS CHEW and I screamed cause I was so happy!

And, I have to wake up at 8 an I am still sitting here.
will update more on my life soon!
Missing W25K and I can't wait for BBQ! yayness!

according to jim

i love this show! and ruby and gracie and kyle are the cutest!!!

Ben&Jerry's

went out to vivo with rainer yesterday.
had pastamania and den walked around vivo and I had a sudden craving for Ben and Jerry's!
it was bliss!!! hahas.
so, we got our sandals!!!

off to suntec to meet up with my family for dinner.
and den we came home, i napped from 9pm to 1 am.
thank God rainer called or else i would not have woken up.
i went to bathe and brush my teeth and i thought i would be awake.
but by 2 am, i was knocked out again.

hurhurhur!!
alrights, excited for class bbq!!
ciao ciao!

a child prodigy

this is amazing. stare and watch in awe. and he's only 11.

dine and dash, more like dine and stroll away

I am so too lazy to upload the Changi Airport pictures.
there were like, 100 plus altogether.
so yea. hahahahas.

Hmms, last night's supper with sly ended off super funny.
firstly, thanks sly for the bubble gum and for the milo dino!
and den, after we finished eating, we forgot to pay and we just left and the guy called us back.
I told sly that it was like dine and dash, and he said more like dine and stroll away!

today, met up with ika and jaz for job hunting.
the initial place we went was like quite a freaky place and the damn guy slammed the door in our faces so we just quickly left. headed to plaza sing after that for more job hunting plus shopping. and den walked to hereen where I got myself 2 pairs of sandals, 1 pair for rainer and jaz gt one cause it was like, on promotion. And I owe rainer a Bday present.

Headed to paragon after that to apply for more jobs. I applied for Toys R Us. Went our seperate ways after that. Went to look for Rainer and his friends to go home together. And thank you Rainer for walking me all the to the bus stop. I had no idea u were taking bus from the interchange.

Oh wells,
Anyways!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL FONG!!!

loovely night

ystday: tekong and changi airport was awesome! popeye's was awesome! camwhoring was awesome. w25k was awesome.

today: clarke quay was beautiful.

later: supper with sly.

tomorrow: jobhunting with ika and jaz!

holidays= love!

thank you

Today marked the last day of W25k, Apr-Aug 2008.

to believe that 16 weeks just zoomed past in a blink of an eye.
to believe that in just 16 weeks, we act as if we have known each other forever.
to believe that after these 16 weeks, we have learnt so much from each other.

this post is dedicated to you guys XD

I wanted to type something about each and everyone of you, but I decided to save it for cards. Changing classes does not mean that the bonds and friendships formed here would end. Instead, it gives us a chance to test our friendship. Let's put effort into maintaining the friendships formed here.

There are some people I would like to especially give a shout out to, cause they deserve to be praised.

Ika: You are one of the strongest person I have ever come across in my life and I don't know what I would do without you. You mean so much to me and I know that our friendship would go far. I'm going to miss going gaga and going crazy with you! Just want you to know that your friendship means so much to me. I love you hun!

Jazreel: Yes, it feels like it was just yesterday that I sat down next to you and and asked you your name. You are someone I feel so comfortable talking to. To know that I have a sister-in-christ in class is so comforting. I will miss making fun of you but I will always love you Jaz. You have impacted my life and we will continue to encourage each other on our walk with God. Love you Jazmylove!

Hafiz and Syafiq: You 2 doinks never fail to make me smile or laugh first thing in the morning when I step into class. Syafiq, I'm going to miss my pillow and Haifz, I'm going to miss making fun of you. But you guys have always been there for me when I'm feeling sad or angry, you guys would never fail to cheer me up! I love you doinks!!

(to be continued tomorrow cause I've got to go to sleep!!!)

came up with this statement while walking home with nigel and eileen.
picture credits to darryl. it's so pretty.
I was feeling so tired that night and was kind of disappointed that I didn't get to see the fireworks except the reflection of them off some building at raffles place. but that was enough to make me smile.

sorry darryl, think I kind of ruined your night. but i promise to make it up to you soon!!

swiss hotel- 240 a night, staying in a room like that is still a dream.

today, nigel bonked me on the head with his laptop..
walked into the classroom and heard the soothing sound of simon playing the oboe.
chatted with sarah before the rest appeared.

ran away with ika before nora came.

here's the timeline:

1058 hours:
they were asking others to run off.

1059 hours:
never seen my class people run so fast before. (they'd make great robbers!)
I was too slow to move fast, so I decided to wait till second break
simon shouts: PUAHBUAYTOH!!!

1105 hours:
Faci is still not in class.

1106 hours:
me and ika contemplate whether to fun.

1108 hours:
jazreel and eunice as our watch out.

1109 hours:
plan is excecuted

1110 hours:
reached destination, mission accomplished!

HAHAHAHAS!

oh wells, CSed after that. super shiok.
tomorrow's the last day with the class and i'm feeling kind of sad that we're splitting up, but on the brightside, we still have many activities planned for the holidays. and we're still in the same school! awesome!!!

DEDICATION POST TO W25K TOMORROW!

thanks many

i read eileen's blog and I teared.
when I was sharing to the CG about my class, I was on the verge of tearing.
As I talked to rahman, I teared.

seriously, never in my whole life have I come across such a great group of friends and this is really not a cliche.

We don't just have fun in class, but we really bonded through many things. We overcame problems and we accepted people for who they are. So much so much, I love you guys, W25K, from the bottom of my heart.

more of these post to come.

come on

well, nothing much to post.

just want to say:
if you 2 guys care for me and love me as a friend, you guys would make up because I am affected by your little tiff. and I almost cried and when I threatened to cry, I was ignored. Please make up soon alrights.

and ika, I love you and your flabby thighs!

i know i know

after today, I realized a few things that I tend to take for granted.

now i know that:
I am loved and accepted for who I am.
I have friends who love and protect me.
I have been so blessed to be in a nice and great class, after seeing what happened today.
I am gonna put in effort to keep the friendships that were formed in W25K.

I have been taking too many things for granted.
But today made me realize that I do not need to have a boyfriend to feel loved, all I need is God and a few great friends around me who I know will always love me, accept me and protect me.

Just a few shoutouts to:
- Hafiz and Lynn, I am so touched by what you guys said that I almost felt like tearing.
- Tucky Wong, thanks for Friday night. It was just what I need to boost my confidence and to feel secure. Thanks for always ALWAYS sticking up for me, protecting me and defending me.
- Darryl Chan, YOU BETTER WATCH OUT I TELL YOU!!! hahahas. You know I love you as a friend and thanks for always encouraging me to overcome my fears.

EYESORE

there is a certain eyesore I see everyday. Or at least the days that I go to school.
For those who know, know and for those who don't know, don't know.

Let's see. Class turnout was kind of pathetic today. And time passed super slow.
Ika and Syafiq didn't come so I felt like, real bored. But then my kuku classmates started to make me high and plus SLY!

We talked about sleeping paralysis and moving blankets and other things which were quite cool. And chatted with Jazreel too.

And then, I went to the toilet with Jaz and when I went back to class, Ask was there. Got a shock! hahas! And because of something, I kicked Asyrani's butt!! hahas! sent him down and den went to meet ika and sly at galilee for lunch.

"Hide the food, hide the food!"

Moving on, CS was damn crazy and damn fun lahs. I am improving

Tomorrow is Adventure Learning and I am so damn freaking scared but I am going to do it and I am going to complete it!

Ciao!

While playing CS:
syafiq: shoot shoot shoot!
me: I don't want I don't want!

While trying to comfort me from my scare of ALC:
ika: don't worry, you will have to sign a form.
me: that RP is liable for anything that happens to us?
ika: yea, like if the string snaps or something..
me: *gives the really really shocked and scared face*
sly: very comforting ar ika.

love&gummy

me: ALC... ahhhhs.... im more excited den scared now.!!!
ika: walao... dear, stop worrying la, anything happens u can sue the RP
(ALC= adventure learning)

well. reached home and I had heat stroke due to the freaking hot weather today.
hydrated myself and slept in an aircon room, woke up, felt better.

dedicating this post to love and gummy.

jazmylove!

jazreel lim li ling! the first person I knew (other than daphne) in W25K!
she's the sweetest and nicest and kindest and most loving person I know.
When I'm up or down, left or right, she's been there for me.
She bears with my crap and nonsense and laughs with me for no reason, even when I am laughing at her. She laughs with me laughing with her. She's great in planning outings for the class and it's great to have a sister-in-Christ plus friend like her. Thanks Jazreel for everything thus far!!

ikagummy!

where to start? She's the one who makes me smile, who makes me go crazy, who makes my day and who joins me in talking nonsense sometimes. She made me proud of her when she overcame her stage fright. We are together for like, 80% of the school day, when both of us are in class full-time. We love brownies and cookies and sushi and donuts together! oh! and we love to take pics! She has a nice smile and weird laughter and she when she sneezes, it's so cute that I can't help but laugh!

While talking to Ika, both of us realised that in any relationship- be it BGR or friendship, effort must be put in from both parties to make the relationship work and to make the relationship last. Truthfully speaking, in this class, we may be so close now, but who knows if 2 years down the road would we be this close. Unless we put effort into keeping these friendships we have now, we will not remain friends.

But whatever it is, right now, W25K, you people are great and I am treasuring the last 1.5 week we have together!

if only

sometimes, I really wish that time would stand still.
and sometimes, I wish that there was no such thing as changes.
but the only thing that does not change is changes.

the past 2 weeks have been challenging for me.
and it's mainly my issue. for letting emotions and feelings to control me.
it's been a long time since I had a good break, a good cry.
and even when I'm feeling down, I can't seem to cry, I would just be so stoned.

maybe if I have not been backstabbed or hurt so many times by people who were dear to me, my life would have been so much better. I would not fear so many things. And I'm like, such a coward. I only dare to open up my life to certain people cause I am scared of being backstabbed, of being judged, of a friend leaving me.

I'm scared of changing classes. I'm afraid that the friendships formed here are just temporary. It's so easy to say that "oh, we're always going to be friends no matter what." but when the change comes, things just happen and the friendship starts to fade.

i dun even know what i'm typing. the post is like, all over the place.

but anyways, I think it's time for me to start looking up to God and to seek for His help. He knows i'm tired, He knows I'm exhausted, He knows that I am somehow lost and I need answers. He knows what I need.

enough for a lifetime

didn't expect my day to end off so well.
decided to meet up with tuck wai for dinner at botak jones.
but that was not the highlight of the night.

the highlight of the night was just sitting down, and talking and sharing.
seriously, nights like these will leave you feeling lighter and you will probably go to sleep with a smile on your face.

it was nice just sharing and reminiscining.
and I told him this: the friends I have right now are enough to last me a life time. And I thank God for this.