almost!

3 papers down in one day.
ain't that awesome!

kinda sad that Os are ending soon though.
reasons will be posted up next time.

afiq's irritating.
but still.. hahas.

ehs...
i need sleep!
hang in there people! it's almost over.

i will survive

i survived a week of Os.
i only have 7 more days of papers lehs!

MICHELLE JIAYOU!
and everyone else too.

bye!

a beautiful beginning.

im so happy.
and i really really thank God.
cause i knew how to do my maths today.
my first O level paper!

Went to meet brother chiam in the morning and he overslept.
ate and studied.
started to feel very sick while in macs and wen i got to school it wussen any better.
so i prayed and God healed me.

hmmms...
so paper. den went to stalford to meet ben, diane and yingjie.
went to eat den to the park macs to study and the usual.

facade.
i wanna take my facade off.
cause it's too tiring to pretend that I'm okay most of the time.
Cause right now, so many things are going through my head.
Can't seem to think straight.
i may seem happy, but inside. it really hurts.

the truth?
no one knows my real past, the things that went on in my life when i was younger. only my brother knows. because of all this, im a very paranoid person. im scared every little wrong thing done. I'm scared of feeling physical pain.

but i guess, i can't think of all these now.
gotta concentrate on my Os and do my best.
May God Bless Me.

they're actually here.

14 hrs and 23 mins to my first written paper.
and it had to be AMATHS!
spent my day studying.

so bored now.
meeting brother chiam at 730 tomorrow.
and poor afiq's alone at the park macs.
sorry dude!

lalalalas...
i should really sleep now.
but i just ate.
thanks everyone for the blessings!

they

braindead.

i just ended my 2h45mins tuition session.
im braindead.
not literally.

woke up at 8am.
did 3 full amaths paper den went out to meet ben, diane, botak and yingjie at 3pm.
just went to eat andpass ben his notes.
saw rahayu and aslam XD
loves.

left with diane and botak and was back home by 5.
slept until 7 and waited for my teacher till 8.

well, life is still okay for me.
after my mental breakdown on tuesday, i felt quite okay.
took mrs ang's advice to go for a walk when i was stressed on thursday.
felt so much better.

i just wanna make a point about something that has been bugging me.
i'm someone who has to study to get good grades.
and not just anyhow studying, but hardcore studying.
my parents are so strict with me now.
the biggest threat is that if i dun do well, i'm off to america cause i can't afford to retake.
im already old enough.
it's easy for others to say that they will retake, but for me, i just can't. i want to get through this once and for all.

i know i should disobey respectfully, but it's not easy.
especially since my major exams are next monday.
i'm sorry if i have not been going to service, but i really really need to study.
but rest assured, i know what i am doing.
this is my life, let me do what i want to do.
i'm old enough to think for myself already.

you've got a friend

prata in the morning.
diane and botak came my house to slack.
and we pedicured and manicured botak and we camwhored.
met afiq.
study slack study slack joke and out.
went to food court with diane den came home.
tuition later lahs.
amaths nxt monday and tuesday!
ahhh!!!
O LEVELS!!!
they are ACTUALLY HERE!!!

zinc carbonate!

tt was the answer for today's chem pract.
i anyhow due but thanks to God and Mr Liew, it was correct.

after pract, went to meet the 2 idiots.
chatted a lot lahs.
i was emoing.
sorry loves.

den i was quite worried lahs, den botak, afiq, ray and diane and rainer made me laugh!
walked a lot.

sweated out my stress just now.
thanks TUCKWAI for meeting me to walk.

study study study,

20 days and it's over

thanks afiqREZZA for the reminder.
had CG today.
total fun and love!

cabbed down to meet afiq and botak.
ying jie was there too.
yeshen, zhicai, darrick and des came and i said hi.
den diane came!
we studied quite little and chatted loadds.
it's nice hanging with them.
totally love them.

happy bday to my little sis who's turned 15.
sorraye i cudden celebrate with you.
owe you big time but i love ya loadds!

bye!

can you feel it, can you feel the love

sorry bout the post ystday.
im so much better now after sleeping 10 hours.
many thanks and loves to rachel for the survival pack.
i was very touched.

many thanks and loves to rainer who let me rant my negativeness to him
many thanks and loves to my tuition mate, specially botak and yingjie for their care and concern.
many thanks and loves to my mommy for buying the NO CAFFEINE hot chocolate, chicken essence and for brewing very light ginseng for me.
and to kar and emily for their kind words of encouragement.

thanks you all so much.
so, i didn't sleep at all on monday night.
but still went to school for geog remedial.
studied abit in the canteen with longlong.
tried to teach him organic chem.
went to meet shuwen at amk park macs.
totally adore that place.
great place for studying.

botak came and i taught him organic chem
shuwen left and afiq came.
den ray.
and afiq stole my identity.
headed to tuition.
relief teacher.
after tuition came home, bathed, wanted to sleep and my lovely rach showed up at my doorstep.
went to have supper and saw afiq.
and i love rachel.
and came home and SLEPT!!!!

the feeling of being loved.
thanks everyone!

torture.

it's just torture.
the stress has built up to a point where i can't sleep at night.
im so so so tired dat i may even say im overexhausted.
the torturing thing is that, i'm not sleepy.
it makes me feel like pulling my hair out.

hving a breakdown.
i wanna throw everything aside.
i dun wanna care about anything.
can't stop crying.
head is spinning.

so so tired.
i want to sleep.
but i can't.

family, will you all please understand.
that i need as much support i can get from you guys.
please, for the time being, just help me get through this.

one more week

to deathday.
3 days to practical!

woke up at 11 when set alarm to 12.
supposed to meet boak at 1 den he said 2.
so slackkked.

den went to macs.
diane came.
den rainer, minji and minling came and said hi.
den botak came,
rainer, minji and minling left.
den diane left.
den yingjie came.
den ben came.
den ray came.
den we bussed to sengkang!
and den we lived happily ever after.
THE END!

no lahs.
im crapping.
had tuition.
den tiong bahru ppl came down so it was quite packed.
tuitionnnnn... and i was sleepy.

bussed to AMK.
had dinner at s11.
took bus back with botak.
i shall sleep early tonight.
cause i gt school in the morn.
study with mates in the afternoon.
tuition at night.

im feeling, bloated.
take magnesium hydroxide if you have indigestion.
Mr Jay has been a great teacher!
i love my tuition friends.
i love my CG.
i love 405.
i love my shepherd and sheepmate.
i love God.

Last Goodbye

Alex Band - Last Goodbye

I turn the pageMy story ends

I say goodbye to all my friends

I know it's getting late

Now the light is on my face

I changed the clocks back again

And ask forgiveness for my sins

Cause I don't know where I'll go

Well this is all that I really know

I'll keep holding on

I'll keep singing my song

It gets me through it

I've got the scars to prove it

Well I know the road is long

But I'm staying strong

So don't cry

Cause this is not my last goodbye

I'm finding out the hardest way

You learn before you fall from grace

In shadows we can grow

We are the seeds we sow

Through every single hour fades

From sand to stone and rock to clay

It's bittersweet this symphony

Enjoy the gift that's given to you and me

just for laughs.

clip from scary movie 4.

ermms.. stayed at home and studied today! that's about it. studying with tuition mates tomorrow. i'm falling sick, flu and sore throat. God, heal me.

sometimes you can't make it on your own

i cudden go for service this morning.
my dad didn't allow.
i didn't fight back cause i promised him and my mom 3 weeks ago dat i wudden go until Os are over. But i went for the past 2 weeks. gna find a way to sneak out nxt week.

stayed at home.
was supposed to go study with botak.
den botak was LAZY!!!!!!
studied with ben and diane instead.

ddn't really study much cause i was tired!
yups.
i wna change blog skin!
i dunno lahs. see first.
byees!

and happy birthday to the lovable shuwen!

it's now over

just got back from pasar malam with sean.

i slept only 2 hours last night.

or this morning since at slept at 5am.

i drank coffee at 930 pm when i was out with wen studying.

den while chatting with botak, i gt hungry and tired so went to sleep.

i stared at the white/lavendar ceiling for 2 hours.

super tired this morning.

went to meet peishan and some others 206'05/405'07 people.

den LINHUI came as we were leaving.

i was so happy to see her lahs.

met up with ting bong den walked to school.

Grads Ceremony.

i thought i would feel sad, but i felt nothing.

like sean said, those who you think you will miss alot, you won't in the end cause you'll end up always meeting them.

loadds of pics.

so gonna miss 405!

came home.

prepared for PM.

SLEEP for one hour and it started to rain.

i really didn't wanna wake up, but i had to.

went to rach's house for PM.

been a long time since i played guitar for such a long period of time.

fingers are sore.

but it felt good.

home.

im so tired now.

i wanna SLEEP!

soon, hahas.

for now..

PICTURES!

me, shan, jen, dor, hui2, lin, big head 1 and 2. and mr lee!

SLC batch of 2007. they taught me CAMARADARIE

me, linhui, peishan and a bit of sausage boy.
chenjuihsin! the clown who sat behind me during the first semester.
and louisa.
big head 1, 2 and 3.

they showed me fun and friendship.
dun mind rainer's hair although it's quite distracting.
206 2005. Most of the class.
and sohlihong.
and they made chinese class fun.
concert. Mr hiew, lee and soon singing. hilarious.

teachers item.
405. People i will never forget.
informal.
they showed me love and the true meaning of friendship.

no doubt, i will miss 405 a lot.

and my batch of SLs.

let's keep in touch.

and..

im going for prom.

as the end gets closer

tomorrow's grad ceremony.
im feeling super sad now.
im really gna miss my friends alot!

well, slacked at home den went to meet shuwen.
den went to rainer and gang to CSCC.
they played basketball.
we chatted.
den rainer and shuwen and me went to pasar malam.
chit chat.

whee.
feeling sad.
i dun want tomorrow to come.

another day gone.

just like tt.
pooh.

went out for cg and den rushed den for tuition.
tuition was great and mr jay gave us chocolates.
he's a great teacher by the way.

went for dinner with yingjie, ray, ben, deng, botak and afiq.
went to NTUC after that and den home.
getting my butt out of the house to study like hardcore studying tomorrow.
whee.

facebook

it's like the coolest thing right now.
no school! hahas.
remedials at 9 tomorrow.
grad day on friday.

tuition was alright.
it was quiet.
botak and ray crashed our class.

hmmms.
no supper khaki.
khaki one has to study and play mahjong.
khaki two bathed already and doesn't wanna go out.
khaki three took too long to reply.
hahas.
pasar malam downstairs!
i want my tutu kueh! yay!

just one more month.

and everything will be over.
just gt back from extra lesson at rivervale.
went with ray, botak, yingjie and deng.
im feeling very dizzy now.

i sleptat 930 last night.
was wide awake in class.
and watched the campfire song on tucky's new nano!
will upload pics soon.

yup.
so tomorrow will be my last day in school.
not sure if im going but most probably will.
im off now!
i just got a facebook!

sooner or later

i woke up at 830 am.
met kar and jon at 10am to study.
slowly, more peopl came.
den me, kar, rach and gigi went to watch water bapt.

bussed back to the library.
studied awhile den was called home.
and i saw BRIAN HAN! hahah.

and saw a number of my primary school friends: hanling, chenyu, xinyun.
and saw yueling.
and stanley, wanru, hiroshi, danial, shah.

home.
sleeping soon.
dat with big head tomorrow!

HIs love keeps me hanging

actually, i really did not feel like going service for some stupid reason.
in the end i went, i i made the right choice.
praise was so cool today.

lunched and left early to come home and change.
headed out to meet wens and chiam and drizzle.
but drizzle is leaving soon.
ken is sorta invisible right now.

so den we headed to macs after awhile and den rainer and drizzle left, and me a shuwen studied.
saw keithhhhhhh.
and den tingbong and kenneth yeo.
homed XD

water bapt tomorrow XD

one month until Os are over.

bad things don't last

met up with kar for food just now.
after tt headed to hub to walk and walk wand walk and den to PM.
went to j8. omg. i have not been there in a long time.
spent about 2 hours there.

took bus with rach and yining aka dua tao and yuanyuan!
we did so many stupid things and i cudden stop laughing the whole time.
i really love these girls loads. they really light up my life.
and the day ended by me seeing keith while i was on the bus.
hahas.

my eye bags are so black now.
need to get rid of them!
sleep! hahas.
bye!

as the end comes to the beginning and as the begininng comes to an end

i've realised that the more i try to fit in, the more i stick out like a sore thumb.
oh wells, i guess that's how my life was meant to me.

only 12 people from 405 went to school today.
me, van, rach, yanglin, wanxin, barathi, vivegan, stanley, ben, bikram and yejie.
so school was so boring and i almost died of boredom.

im so tired now.
blog more later! ciao!

don't surpress but confess.

my tummy's unwell.

a lot of people's tummys are unwell too.

and and and..

i miss this girl tonnes!

yups.

so i went to school today! hahahs.

FnN was alrights. quite slack and we combined with 406 and hongkwang is funny.

den mr soo took over mr rashidah and he socialised with us. and gave us muffins.

i sat next to jenalyn today!

recessed and den chem.

followed by english with lots of digression and mrs ang was very crappy today.

in fact, the whole class was!

self study during VE.

im going school tomorrow!

yep.

shall go back to studying now!

when u feel like you're experiencing what you learn in Socail Studies.

today was just like, nations divided.
it's like we're becoming south korean and north korea- we are two but we are one.
it sucks to see something like this happen.
im just praying that everything will be resolved soon.
i really didn't want to get involved but i had to protect her.
after all she has done for me, this was the least i could do.

anyways.. been studying for the past 2 days at macs.
yeshen was so funny today.
within one hour, he asked me 3 questions on history.
and i told him 3 times that i don't take history.
it even came to the extent where i had to ask him if he was purposely doing it to irritate me. hahas. he's got STM! lols.

tuition and i was tired.
bussed back with benjamin.
not sure if i should go school tomorrow. *ponders*

stanley and shuwen, hope you guys are okay.
rach and peishan, hope you guys are okay too.